sucks nite.

the climax for today is so windy and rainy day.

although i am wearing sweater but also feel damn cold.

what the fuck with this jacket. cant keep me warm even. grrrrr.

i go nsa study with my classmates around 12pm.

around 3pm i meet Ian at NSA, he said he will come back study again bout 9pm untill 1am

then i request whether he can fetch me home.

he said no problem. :)

i stay at school to study until 4pm then decide to ask JJ to fetch me go home

because i want to eat 1633 de butter chicken rice so badly.

i hesitate of eating Maggie all the days. 

when i go to bus stop i notice the wind is freaking strong. 

i text JJ and ask him dnt want come and fetch me dy.

because it is not convenience and i dnt want to trouble him.

study study untill 1.30. 

Ian still not coming. i give a text to him and remind him i still at NSA.

he said he's drunk because he attend someone's weeding.

and he cant drive, he can only fetch me back int the next morning.

i was like omg!!! NSA there only left me one people.

my first person come to my mind was JJ. 

but i still dnt want to tell him first because it is late 

then i think about my classmate who living near senadin.

but they sleep dy.

so i ask albert whether his housemate got car anot

but he said no car and he the only person in the house.

urghhh

no choice. i go find JJ.

JJ answer cant because it is late.

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what answer is that

and dint even ask isit me alone there 

just imagine how a girl feel when you say no

first you have car

second you not living so far away also

third my condition really is emergency

forth we are not random friends ( FUCK! i dont what is the relationship i can say between you and me)

for that moment,my heart broken

i dnt knw how to explain

deep disappointed and sad~

another way albert keep helping me to solve the problem

he even want to ask less or siew yew to fetch me.

or overnite at daneeta's dorm. 

at first i am not willing to because it is scary also 

have to walk alone to lakeside in the midnite

unfortunately, my phone battery low also :(

but noone can help.no choice.

i tell myself i can face it! and ask myself dnt scare!

JJ ask me how? i said i maybe go daneeta place

he replies
yea..
go there..
dont alone at nsa there
go there stay ba..

*just like this...
my feeling go DOWN again once more
he treats me like a normal case
even my classmate more worry than him
i feel so down and emo
it is a emergency stuff for me
it is 2.30 in the morning and i alone at NSA. >.<
i dint reply him and rush to daneeta place because she said she is going to sleep soon.
i received his call but i dint answer
just dont want to talk to him and im moody dy.
he is too bad.
can leave me alone in campus.
the feeling is damn sucks

when i reach daneeta dorm, the first thing she asked me was where's JJ.
why he's not coming to fetch you?
i was like errr. because it is late ady and he just come back from other place.then cant fetch me. @.@
when i get into her room, albert inbox daneeta and ask whether i reach dy or not.
albert just a friend, but he also worry bout my safety.but you?? got car dint even come and fetch me and just ask me go daneeta there. although im abit more bravery than other girls,but it is late at nite.
you should have to think about my safety also.
am i expect too much on you?
altight, the next thing i got told you i go daneeta there maybe but you dint even ask her about that.
i am totally heart broken.


Big SUck Day~