#03

duhhhhhhh
sitting inside my room
feeling so blank !
what to do?
i cant take you off my mind
you make me feel bad today
just now i even didnt finish my dinner
feel like it is tasteless
urrhhhh

begin like this
me,jean and lemon them go to library before our malaysian studies lecture start
in the discussion area, i meet Amy Tang, Yee Wen and etc
dnt knw why i automatically looked around a while
i dint notice him
so i naturally begin our talks in library

then i meet george
he was just the next table of me
eww,that guy
so annoying eh
keep inbox me in fb and talk nonsense
what i got bf or i like him anot
damm you la
dnt have the mood to answer you also
the topics always the same
S I E N
okay back to the topic
so i just turn my head to my right hand side
want to ignore him only
but then i couldnt predict i did the same to my Him also

suddenly i saw him on my left hand side corner there
i cried out OMGG why he's here??
but i should be happy
because this is only the second time i meet him since i ard came here bout two weeks le
before that i always wanted to meet him in campus one
finally the God give me a chance today.
i saw him idk how to react
i automatically turned my head down and dnt want to look at him
i scared he saw me
but i wanted him to come towards me and talked to me
just like a friend did
but he also dint do that.
okay fine
i leave the library with jean,lemon and their classmate(xing ying)
i passed by him
and they asked me why i walk so fast
i dint answer but just smile
after the tutorial
i waited bus at the drop off point
meet boon and chat with her
damn
i saw him again!
what?
my heart beats fast and i find somewhere to hide
i saw mandie lyan and angel was opposite there
i quickly ran to them and ga ga yi chat with them
btw,also cant escape i accidentally eye contact with him
then just say a hi
and he walked through me
i tot it was the end of the day
how i knw he came back in a few minutes
oh god
when he comes near me
then he asked me going back to villa
and i answered yes
actually i want to ask back him why so late still staying at campus
but my mouth came out nothing.
just a word to him after that
Bye.

*i really dont knw how to do in this moment
are we over? just a very very normal fried?
i hate you. why you want make me fall for you
if im not the one, you should treat me specially
i dint force you to do that also
just a ques
you had feeling to me before?
or you just fooling me

tonight will be my eMo night
i freaking dnt like it.
T_____T